Flickering lights.
Groaning stomach.
I drifted from block to block like an intoxicated ghost.
A hand with a book. The other dangling like a branch.
I am broken, lost and sick.
The sharp pain on my knees and butt pierced through me.
I threaded slowly as if there were a thousand needles rocketing in my path.
All of a sudden, my life loses meaning.
All of a sudden, I become an aimless driftwood unable to find home.
My stomach is bloated.
Sick from the rice, the curry, the bread, and the sparkling drink; obviously too much for my weak stomach to hold.
This feeling. It's so painful. Yet, so good. I shower myself in sorrow and self pity; Remembering the episodes of darkness and depression; and how futile my life is.
I imagine the world crashing. I imagine myself being nothing but a thin branch to be broken by the strong ruthless wind; I imagine myself losing control, jumping into the sea of commerce, novels and temporal enjoyment; I imagine myself getting slashed by my ill-discipline, suffering from the wounds with regret and a sick enjoyment.
So...
Who am I?